Green eyed monster

So recently I felt kinda envious of my friend. She has something I don't have and really want to have. As I was chewing these thoughts and plotting in my little brain, I heard a voicc ask me; Do you really want what she has? Are you willing to go through all she has been through? Will you exchange your life for hers? I replied "actually I just want that single thing without the strings attached". No,if you really want what she has you have to go through what she has been through. I kinda get it. The grass is not always greener on the other side.

Friendships

Dear Diary, Why is my adult life getting harder each day? Take for instance the fact that I can't just smile at the lady in the seat beside me and become her best friend. That is how I became buddies with Grace. Why can't I brush past the neighbor downstairs and next thing I know our kids are running everywhere playing. What has changed? Even my so called Facebook, twitter, BBM friends seem fake? Why? Am I missing something?